Sorry. ;(

Just a brief update…

I haven’t been able to post anything lately because I have been working crazy hours on my job. My posts may be few and far between for the next month or so.

Quickly, however, I slipped off of my diet wagon for a few days, but I’m back on. My schedule hasn’t left me much time to cook, and that’s why my diet has suffered.

Also, for a moment, I thought about not joining the Catholic Church. I was upset about something that I saw concerning the Vatican, but I’m working through that.

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Mary Mary…quite contrary….

…to what I have been taught (see what I did there..)

The way that some Catholics treat Mary was one of the hardest things that I have had to deal with as far as my conversion to Catholicism goes. When I told my immediate family about my conversion, they were supportive, but the one thing that was requested of me was no Mary or Pope worship! (I did explain to them the Catholic understanding of these topics. There request came from what they saw on TV whenever the Pope visited a country (kissing the ring and bowing) or a Mary apparition was found.)

The Catholic position of Mary being the “Mother of God” as well as the mother of the church is not where my problem lied.  Mary is indeed the mother of Jesus and the bible says we are to call her “blessed”.  Not a problem at all!

My issue is with what’s called as veneration to her.  Or even worse, consecration to Mary.  Veneration….consecration…devotion…those are some very scary words to a protestant.  It appears to take the focus off of Christ and on to Mary.  Not to mention, there are images that don’t look to cool to non-catholics (and orthodox), such as:

The most important thing to any Christian is to be focused on Jesus Christ, our Saviour.  Anything that takes the focus off of Him and on to something else is blasphemy, right?  St. Louis de Montfort is the most well-known saint to many Mary consecrators.  de Montfort, in his writings called “True Devotion to the Blessed Virgin Mary” says “ “All that belongs to God by nature belongs to Mary by grace”, say the saints, and, according to them, just as Jesus and Mary have the same will and the same power, they have also the same subjects, servants and slaves.” He also writes Moreover, if, as I have said, the Blessed Virgin is the Queen and Sovereign of heaven and earth, does she not then have as many subjects and slaves as there are creatures? “All things, including Mary herself, are subject to the power of God. All things, God included, are subject to the Virgin’s power”, so we are told by St. Anselm, St. Bernard, St. Bernardine and St. Bonaventure. Really? Wow!  I do think some people, past and present, take things to far – bordering (if not crossing over) to marian worship.

You’re probably asking “is she gonna come to a point of all of this?”  The answer is “no.” LOL!!

However, let me say this: I have prayed the rosary several times.  At first, it was a little weird and uncomfortable. But every time after that, it was peaceful and serene.  The rosary is a fabulous way to meditate on the life of Christ.  And yes, it IS a meditation of the life on Christ, not on the the life of Mary.  I do love praying the rosary (did I just say that out loud?) and I truly believe it does draw you closer to God in your prayer life. (But be sure to be silent and listen for God to speak to you.)  I don’t do it as often as I believe that I should, admittedly.  I also feel drawn to her in a way – I want to know as much about her as possible.

Now, from what I understand, it is not a requirement that Catholics pray the rosary or venerate Mary (or any other saint).  However, I do believe that we should live our lives as Mary did: with unshakeable belief and worship to her son, our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

The Pros…and the labels…

Before I decided to convert the Catholicism (and before my son was conceived), I was staunchly pro-choice (not pro-abortion – that moniker is so inflammatory and divisive).

But something happened – the conception of my son.  My husband and I tried for 3 years to conceive a child (including some medical intervention) and by the grace of God, I became “with Child” last year.  This was our first child (neither one of us had any children).  He’s an absolute joy and such a happy baby.

It made me realize what a blessing and a miracle a child is.  I heard my son’s heartbeat when I was six weeks pregnant.  It was totally amazing!!

I just can’t imagine anyone aborting something so precious because they might have slept with a married man or felt like they were too young to have children (situations that I am personally aware of).  Using abortion as birth control is truly sickening to me.

I’m kinda on the fence in cases of rape or incest and threats to a mother’s life.  I can’t imagine being raped or molested and carrying the product of that horror for nine months.

Am I pro-choice or pro-life? I honestly don’t know.  I cannot tell another woman what to do with her body. Being pregnant is not exactly a walk in the park (but what a great reward!).

I can say that you will never see me on the street with pictures of aborted fetuses screaming in front of an abortion clinic. I don’t think that’s very effective and calling some woman who has agonized over her decision a “baby-killer” or “a murderer” just breeds hate.

What I will do is pray for them and spread the news about adoption via Catholic Charities so young women know that abortion is not the only way.  Also to let them know the the baby that they are carrying can be a blessing to a child-less couple.

One week down

One week on my new diet way of eating, and i have lost 4.6 pounds! *happy dance*  Yeah yeah. Maybe it’s water weight, but I still lost so don’t you take that from me!! LOL

I know I wrote about doing the slow carb diet, but there is just one problem with the implementation: I HATE BEANS!!!

Well…hate….is a strong word.  Let’s say that I seriously dislike 95% of bean products.  I’ll eat beans in chilli and baked beans, but that’s the end of my bean-eating repertoire.  The slow carb diet wants you to eat a lot of beans, and I just can’t do that. I also missed having fruit.

So, I came up with my own plan.  It’s kinda of a mix of the paleo diet and the slow carb diet.  Here are the rules:

– no white carbs, including breads, rice, potatoes, cookies, cakes, cereals, etc…

–  in fact, no grains at all (I don’t like wheat bread and brown rice).

– no caloric drinks (don’t drink your calories). Drink as much water as you can handle without forcing it down your throat.

– one serving of fruit per day

– 1-2 servings of dairy (usually for me, that’s yogurt or maybe cheese. I don’t like to drink milk)

– 1 cheat day per week

This is what seems to work for me.  It’s sustainable according to my life right now.

A point about the dairy: I have read both pro and cons for dairy products.  So YMMV. I like my greek yogurt and I’m not giving it up.

A point about the cheat day: I try not to go crazy on it.  However, on the slow carb diet, you can go absolutely nuts if you choose and there is nothing wrong with that IMO.  For me, I know that I can’t go too crazy, or I won’t jump back on the wagon the next day.  For instance, if I want a burger from Burger King, I’ll get the whopper junior instead of a whopper and a small fries instead of the medium.  I’m still getting the same taste, but in smaller portions – because ultimately, that’s what I’m trying to teach myself anyway – to eat smaller.  Also on cheat day, I still try to stay away from the caloric drinks.  I stick to the diet ones. (Crystal light lemonade is my fave. I even drank that when I wasn’t dieting. I add lemon juice.)

Also, one of most important things is to PLAN PLAN PLAN!!  If you don’t plan your meals, more than likely, if you’re on the go, you’re gonna pick up something full of carbs.  There are just not as many low carb options out there outside of salad.

This is what I’m doing in a nutshell. Let’s see if I can keep going. *wink*

I thank you Lord for giving me the strength and motivation to not give up…

 

 

Okay…Let’s Try That Again…

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Okay…

Medifast was a no-go: The food was okay but every item had added soy protein and I tasted it! Bleh!  So I sent all of my unused portions back to them.  They can keep it!! LOL!

So, determined not to give up, here I am again.

I am going to try the Slow Carb Diet.  This diet uses real food and has simple rules plus it allows one cheat day per week! Yay!  It took me an hour this morning to prepare my breakfast and lunch for today, but that shouldn’t be a normal occurrence. I should have prepared it last night.

So, here I do again…

The first day of the rest of my life.

[Different thoughts going in my head… And this song by Prince is stuck in my head. The best line of that song is “Nobody said the race was fair, but I’m gonna keep runnin’ just the same” – It’s my motto now.]

Sine it’s Day 1 on my weightloss plan, I have noticed a lot of food-related things:

On my commute to work everyday, I pass three McDonalds, three Burger Kings, one Krispy Kreme, one Taco Bell, one Chick Fil-A, one Starbucks, one Dunkin Donuts, two chinese restaurants, one Sheik, and one Krystals. I also notice that there are a lot of food commercials that are aired during all times of the day. Honestly, I am glad that I notice these things, so I won’t be blind-sided by temptation.  I know where it may come from…LOL.

My dream is to jog/run for a few miles. Everyone that I know who runs on a regular basis say it’s relaxing and clears their heads.  What a great avenue in which to experience that relaxation.

I don’t want to be a size 6. It’s not my goal. It’s to be a size 10, but i don’t know if I can maintain it. I’m sure it would take a lot of work, but I will try to get there. I am not saying that I can’t do it and or I am not gonna try. I am going to try hard to get there.  It will probably take a 100lb loss for me which is no easy thing, but I cannot give up on myself!

The number of the scale is not important to me. I just want to be able to shop in the “regular’ sizes and not the plus size store/sections, like I do now.

With God’s help, I will get there…

/ramblings

Tomorrow…

I start my weight loss plan tomorrow and I am sooooo nervous afraid!

What if I fail?

What if I lose and then gain all of the weight back?

It’s just like that WW commercial with Jennifer Hudson where she hears all those questions in her head.

I hear all of this questions in my head right now.

One day at a time… As a commenter mentioned to me.

One day at a time…