Very Brief Update!

I’m still working a lot of hours on my job which is the reason for the infrequent posts.

Diet Update:
I screwed up.  Because I’m working so many hours, junk food has been my staple – especially chocolate cake or muffins.  Bad me!  I actually gained a pound (making my weightloss 3 pounds instead of 4).  I haven’t completely gone back to my old eating habits, it’s just a slack a bit.  I’m also very tired from the hours at work and my son being sick.  (a serious lack of sleep).  I am trying to get back on track now.

I realize that I eat junk when I get stressed and I’ve been very stressed lately.  It’s the old “comfort food” problem.  I’m wondering if food should be that much comfort…
Conversion update:  I was contacted by a Deacon at church who is in charge of the RCIA program, so I should be starting the process this month with a few inquiry sessions.  I am so excited and nervous.

Thank you, Lord, for my job and my life.  Amen.

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Sorry. ;(

Just a brief update…

I haven’t been able to post anything lately because I have been working crazy hours on my job. My posts may be few and far between for the next month or so.

Quickly, however, I slipped off of my diet wagon for a few days, but I’m back on. My schedule hasn’t left me much time to cook, and that’s why my diet has suffered.

Also, for a moment, I thought about not joining the Catholic Church. I was upset about something that I saw concerning the Vatican, but I’m working through that.

One week down

One week on my new diet way of eating, and i have lost 4.6 pounds! *happy dance*  Yeah yeah. Maybe it’s water weight, but I still lost so don’t you take that from me!! LOL

I know I wrote about doing the slow carb diet, but there is just one problem with the implementation: I HATE BEANS!!!

Well…hate….is a strong word.  Let’s say that I seriously dislike 95% of bean products.  I’ll eat beans in chilli and baked beans, but that’s the end of my bean-eating repertoire.  The slow carb diet wants you to eat a lot of beans, and I just can’t do that. I also missed having fruit.

So, I came up with my own plan.  It’s kinda of a mix of the paleo diet and the slow carb diet.  Here are the rules:

– no white carbs, including breads, rice, potatoes, cookies, cakes, cereals, etc…

–  in fact, no grains at all (I don’t like wheat bread and brown rice).

– no caloric drinks (don’t drink your calories). Drink as much water as you can handle without forcing it down your throat.

– one serving of fruit per day

– 1-2 servings of dairy (usually for me, that’s yogurt or maybe cheese. I don’t like to drink milk)

– 1 cheat day per week

This is what seems to work for me.  It’s sustainable according to my life right now.

A point about the dairy: I have read both pro and cons for dairy products.  So YMMV. I like my greek yogurt and I’m not giving it up.

A point about the cheat day: I try not to go crazy on it.  However, on the slow carb diet, you can go absolutely nuts if you choose and there is nothing wrong with that IMO.  For me, I know that I can’t go too crazy, or I won’t jump back on the wagon the next day.  For instance, if I want a burger from Burger King, I’ll get the whopper junior instead of a whopper and a small fries instead of the medium.  I’m still getting the same taste, but in smaller portions – because ultimately, that’s what I’m trying to teach myself anyway – to eat smaller.  Also on cheat day, I still try to stay away from the caloric drinks.  I stick to the diet ones. (Crystal light lemonade is my fave. I even drank that when I wasn’t dieting. I add lemon juice.)

Also, one of most important things is to PLAN PLAN PLAN!!  If you don’t plan your meals, more than likely, if you’re on the go, you’re gonna pick up something full of carbs.  There are just not as many low carb options out there outside of salad.

This is what I’m doing in a nutshell. Let’s see if I can keep going. *wink*

I thank you Lord for giving me the strength and motivation to not give up…

 

 

Okay…Let’s Try That Again…

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Okay…

Medifast was a no-go: The food was okay but every item had added soy protein and I tasted it! Bleh!  So I sent all of my unused portions back to them.  They can keep it!! LOL!

So, determined not to give up, here I am again.

I am going to try the Slow Carb Diet.  This diet uses real food and has simple rules plus it allows one cheat day per week! Yay!  It took me an hour this morning to prepare my breakfast and lunch for today, but that shouldn’t be a normal occurrence. I should have prepared it last night.

So, here I do again…

The first day of the rest of my life.

[Different thoughts going in my head… And this song by Prince is stuck in my head. The best line of that song is “Nobody said the race was fair, but I’m gonna keep runnin’ just the same” – It’s my motto now.]

Sine it’s Day 1 on my weightloss plan, I have noticed a lot of food-related things:

On my commute to work everyday, I pass three McDonalds, three Burger Kings, one Krispy Kreme, one Taco Bell, one Chick Fil-A, one Starbucks, one Dunkin Donuts, two chinese restaurants, one Sheik, and one Krystals. I also notice that there are a lot of food commercials that are aired during all times of the day. Honestly, I am glad that I notice these things, so I won’t be blind-sided by temptation.  I know where it may come from…LOL.

My dream is to jog/run for a few miles. Everyone that I know who runs on a regular basis say it’s relaxing and clears their heads.  What a great avenue in which to experience that relaxation.

I don’t want to be a size 6. It’s not my goal. It’s to be a size 10, but i don’t know if I can maintain it. I’m sure it would take a lot of work, but I will try to get there. I am not saying that I can’t do it and or I am not gonna try. I am going to try hard to get there.  It will probably take a 100lb loss for me which is no easy thing, but I cannot give up on myself!

The number of the scale is not important to me. I just want to be able to shop in the “regular’ sizes and not the plus size store/sections, like I do now.

With God’s help, I will get there…

/ramblings

Tomorrow…

I start my weight loss plan tomorrow and I am sooooo nervous afraid!

What if I fail?

What if I lose and then gain all of the weight back?

It’s just like that WW commercial with Jennifer Hudson where she hears all those questions in her head.

I hear all of this questions in my head right now.

One day at a time… As a commenter mentioned to me.

One day at a time…

The point when you realize something.

I just realized my size.

When you’re living everyday in your own body, sometimes you don’t realize slow changes that may happen to you over a long length of time.

I used to see myself as the same person that I was in high school – same size and same look.

Then someone younger calls you ma’am. Or the cashier doesn’t ask for I.D. anymore when buying a bottle of wine.  Or you see a picture of yourself from 15 years ago…

Then it hits you: I’m not the same person.  I’ve had more life experiences…yes…but, I don’t look the same.  I’m getting older.

Now, don’t get me wrong, the alternative is being dead and I very much like being alive – especially since I have a baby boy that I want to see grow up and have a family of his own.  I thank God for everyday that I have.

But, I am getting older no matter how I try to ignore it.

Now, I don’t have any wrinkles or anything like that (thanks to good genes and more melanin), but I have gained a considerable amount of weight.

I can take both hands and grab a glob full of my own stomach.  There are a few (not many) restaurants where I can’t sit in their booths anymore.  And I just barely fit into plane seats.  There’s a narrow pathway that I try to walk through that appears to be large enough for me to fit, but i barely squeeze through while holding my breath and sucking in my stomach.

I realized that I am bigger than what I picture myself to be.

I pray that it works this time…