It’s been a long time…

HELLO… hello… hello… Is anyone OUT THERE… out there… out there…LOL

Well, It’s been months since I posted and I apologize for that (to anyone who cares..lol).  I was really busy at work for a time and I also finally started RCIA class!!! YES!!

I can say, without a doubt, RCIA class has been very informative and helpful.  It seems like everyone in my class has made a connection with each other and we’ve also argued with each other too, believe it or not.  But we know that we are in this together.

Throughout this journey, my faith in God has strengthened.  I’ve even asked Mary’s help in prayer a number of times – not to mention all of the rosaries I’ve prayed (thanks to my two favorite apps – Holy Rosary and Pocket Rosary.)    I absolutely love it!

Unfortunately, my weightloss journey is another thing…sigh

 

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Very Brief Update!

I’m still working a lot of hours on my job which is the reason for the infrequent posts.

Diet Update:
I screwed up.  Because I’m working so many hours, junk food has been my staple – especially chocolate cake or muffins.  Bad me!  I actually gained a pound (making my weightloss 3 pounds instead of 4).  I haven’t completely gone back to my old eating habits, it’s just a slack a bit.  I’m also very tired from the hours at work and my son being sick.  (a serious lack of sleep).  I am trying to get back on track now.

I realize that I eat junk when I get stressed and I’ve been very stressed lately.  It’s the old “comfort food” problem.  I’m wondering if food should be that much comfort…
Conversion update:  I was contacted by a Deacon at church who is in charge of the RCIA program, so I should be starting the process this month with a few inquiry sessions.  I am so excited and nervous.

Thank you, Lord, for my job and my life.  Amen.

Mary Mary…quite contrary….

…to what I have been taught (see what I did there..)

The way that some Catholics treat Mary was one of the hardest things that I have had to deal with as far as my conversion to Catholicism goes. When I told my immediate family about my conversion, they were supportive, but the one thing that was requested of me was no Mary or Pope worship! (I did explain to them the Catholic understanding of these topics. There request came from what they saw on TV whenever the Pope visited a country (kissing the ring and bowing) or a Mary apparition was found.)

The Catholic position of Mary being the “Mother of God” as well as the mother of the church is not where my problem lied.  Mary is indeed the mother of Jesus and the bible says we are to call her “blessed”.  Not a problem at all!

My issue is with what’s called as veneration to her.  Or even worse, consecration to Mary.  Veneration….consecration…devotion…those are some very scary words to a protestant.  It appears to take the focus off of Christ and on to Mary.  Not to mention, there are images that don’t look to cool to non-catholics (and orthodox), such as:

The most important thing to any Christian is to be focused on Jesus Christ, our Saviour.  Anything that takes the focus off of Him and on to something else is blasphemy, right?  St. Louis de Montfort is the most well-known saint to many Mary consecrators.  de Montfort, in his writings called “True Devotion to the Blessed Virgin Mary” says “ “All that belongs to God by nature belongs to Mary by grace”, say the saints, and, according to them, just as Jesus and Mary have the same will and the same power, they have also the same subjects, servants and slaves.” He also writes Moreover, if, as I have said, the Blessed Virgin is the Queen and Sovereign of heaven and earth, does she not then have as many subjects and slaves as there are creatures? “All things, including Mary herself, are subject to the power of God. All things, God included, are subject to the Virgin’s power”, so we are told by St. Anselm, St. Bernard, St. Bernardine and St. Bonaventure. Really? Wow!  I do think some people, past and present, take things to far – bordering (if not crossing over) to marian worship.

You’re probably asking “is she gonna come to a point of all of this?”  The answer is “no.” LOL!!

However, let me say this: I have prayed the rosary several times.  At first, it was a little weird and uncomfortable. But every time after that, it was peaceful and serene.  The rosary is a fabulous way to meditate on the life of Christ.  And yes, it IS a meditation of the life on Christ, not on the the life of Mary.  I do love praying the rosary (did I just say that out loud?) and I truly believe it does draw you closer to God in your prayer life. (But be sure to be silent and listen for God to speak to you.)  I don’t do it as often as I believe that I should, admittedly.  I also feel drawn to her in a way – I want to know as much about her as possible.

Now, from what I understand, it is not a requirement that Catholics pray the rosary or venerate Mary (or any other saint).  However, I do believe that we should live our lives as Mary did: with unshakeable belief and worship to her son, our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

One week down

One week on my new diet way of eating, and i have lost 4.6 pounds! *happy dance*  Yeah yeah. Maybe it’s water weight, but I still lost so don’t you take that from me!! LOL

I know I wrote about doing the slow carb diet, but there is just one problem with the implementation: I HATE BEANS!!!

Well…hate….is a strong word.  Let’s say that I seriously dislike 95% of bean products.  I’ll eat beans in chilli and baked beans, but that’s the end of my bean-eating repertoire.  The slow carb diet wants you to eat a lot of beans, and I just can’t do that. I also missed having fruit.

So, I came up with my own plan.  It’s kinda of a mix of the paleo diet and the slow carb diet.  Here are the rules:

– no white carbs, including breads, rice, potatoes, cookies, cakes, cereals, etc…

–  in fact, no grains at all (I don’t like wheat bread and brown rice).

– no caloric drinks (don’t drink your calories). Drink as much water as you can handle without forcing it down your throat.

– one serving of fruit per day

– 1-2 servings of dairy (usually for me, that’s yogurt or maybe cheese. I don’t like to drink milk)

– 1 cheat day per week

This is what seems to work for me.  It’s sustainable according to my life right now.

A point about the dairy: I have read both pro and cons for dairy products.  So YMMV. I like my greek yogurt and I’m not giving it up.

A point about the cheat day: I try not to go crazy on it.  However, on the slow carb diet, you can go absolutely nuts if you choose and there is nothing wrong with that IMO.  For me, I know that I can’t go too crazy, or I won’t jump back on the wagon the next day.  For instance, if I want a burger from Burger King, I’ll get the whopper junior instead of a whopper and a small fries instead of the medium.  I’m still getting the same taste, but in smaller portions – because ultimately, that’s what I’m trying to teach myself anyway – to eat smaller.  Also on cheat day, I still try to stay away from the caloric drinks.  I stick to the diet ones. (Crystal light lemonade is my fave. I even drank that when I wasn’t dieting. I add lemon juice.)

Also, one of most important things is to PLAN PLAN PLAN!!  If you don’t plan your meals, more than likely, if you’re on the go, you’re gonna pick up something full of carbs.  There are just not as many low carb options out there outside of salad.

This is what I’m doing in a nutshell. Let’s see if I can keep going. *wink*

I thank you Lord for giving me the strength and motivation to not give up…

 

 

Okay…Let’s Try That Again…

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Okay…

Medifast was a no-go: The food was okay but every item had added soy protein and I tasted it! Bleh!  So I sent all of my unused portions back to them.  They can keep it!! LOL!

So, determined not to give up, here I am again.

I am going to try the Slow Carb Diet.  This diet uses real food and has simple rules plus it allows one cheat day per week! Yay!  It took me an hour this morning to prepare my breakfast and lunch for today, but that shouldn’t be a normal occurrence. I should have prepared it last night.

So, here I do again…

The point when you realize something.

I just realized my size.

When you’re living everyday in your own body, sometimes you don’t realize slow changes that may happen to you over a long length of time.

I used to see myself as the same person that I was in high school – same size and same look.

Then someone younger calls you ma’am. Or the cashier doesn’t ask for I.D. anymore when buying a bottle of wine.  Or you see a picture of yourself from 15 years ago…

Then it hits you: I’m not the same person.  I’ve had more life experiences…yes…but, I don’t look the same.  I’m getting older.

Now, don’t get me wrong, the alternative is being dead and I very much like being alive – especially since I have a baby boy that I want to see grow up and have a family of his own.  I thank God for everyday that I have.

But, I am getting older no matter how I try to ignore it.

Now, I don’t have any wrinkles or anything like that (thanks to good genes and more melanin), but I have gained a considerable amount of weight.

I can take both hands and grab a glob full of my own stomach.  There are a few (not many) restaurants where I can’t sit in their booths anymore.  And I just barely fit into plane seats.  There’s a narrow pathway that I try to walk through that appears to be large enough for me to fit, but i barely squeeze through while holding my breath and sucking in my stomach.

I realized that I am bigger than what I picture myself to be.

I pray that it works this time…

You want to become Catholic??? But wait a minute….you’re black. Part 2

….my son was born…

God planted a seed in my heart. So, I began to research the Catholic faith.  I read everything that I could get my hands on.  (Even at this point, I am so sick of reading, but I cannot help myself – I can’t stop.)

I started attending mass on a regular basis and I kept reading and researching.

Then my fallen-away-from-the-Church husband told me that he was thinking about having our son baptized in the Catholic Church.  You could have pushed me over with a feather!!!  He then told me that he kind of wanted his son to grow up like he did – going to a Catholic school, being a alter boy, etc. I was floored to say the least.

It was at this moment that I knew God was calling me into the Church.  Through me, the Lord was calling one of is wayward children – my husband – back into the faith; back to being a Christian!  I knew my husband was watching me – my actions and my words.  He was/is very supportive.

I am not going to sugar-coat it: there was sometimes where I did not agree with the Church (and still do not) and the opinions of some of her people (I’ll save that for later posts).    But no matter how far away I tried to run, God kept pulling me back.

I eventually had to submit to His will.  So I decided to inquire about the RCIA (Right of Christian Initiation of Adults) classes.  They will begin the weekend after Labor Day!  I am excited, but nervous at the same time.  But my faith in Jesus is strong and I know that this is the right path for me.